So, this may come as a bit of a surprise to some people, but I can be a bit shy from time to time. Not, say, in everyday life or in normal circumstances that plague regular people, no. But in unfamiliar situations, well then yes.
Case in point: shadowing. I need/want to shadow some doctors. I'm not even picky, and I kind of want to shadow all different kinds. I work in a hospital that is chock full of doctors. This seems like it would be easy. Walk up to doctor, say 'hey, can I shadow you?', he says yes, boom, done.
But it isn't that easy for me. I mean, is that what you actually do? Is there a form that needs filled out? How do I get him to see me as a real person and not a stretcher-monkey? What if he says no? That's generally my biggest concern. If he says no then I will be embarassed every time I see him and will feel silly having asked.
Do doctors like having med school hopefulls following them around? Or is it annoying? I just don't know. So here we are. I'm swimming around in a sea full of the resource I need, but scared to take a sip.
Today I'm meeting with my med student mentor, so hopefully she has some insight into the process and maybe, just maybe, a little bit of what I like to call "the hookup". I mean, it couldn't hurt, right?
It's funny because I am the same way. I am kind of shy and always find those kinds of moments awkward. It's like do I ask or do I get to know them first and then ask so I don't seem like an annoying brat following them. Well good luck to you and I think that is amazing you already work in a hospital doing all the amazing stuff that you do.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the luck, and while I am sad you go through the same neurosis that I do, I am happy to learn I'm not alone! :)
DeleteHahaha.... yeah the same with me.
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